Today SUCKED big fucking time!

Something broke down today that’s vital to my big project. Without it working, we all might as well go home. Thankfully, we were able to get it up in bits and pieces before most of its use occurred and by late morning, it was working well. We’ll see what tomorrow brings but the only way it could get better is if nothing goes wrong. If one thing is off – no matter how minor – will ruin my day, my reputation, and put my job at serious risk.

I felt defeated yesterday because I wasn’t appreciated and now, I feel like I’m in jeopardy of losing my job. I could be over reacting here but I was given the talk that if this happens again, I’ll be fired. Now, those were not the exact words used. And there wasn’t even a strong implied message. But there was the “what I don’t want to have happen is…”talk that basically means that if this happens again or if something else happens, I won’t ‘fit in’ and wouldn’t be around.

It sucks.

Thankfully, this talk also gave me access to new powers and options that I never felt I had before. I will definitely use them in the future. If I do, I won’t be put in this position again.

Plus, from now on…. I’m going to be an asshole to anyone who doesn’t do what I want them to do.